I’ve come to the conclusion that I don’t understand people at all. Quite frankly I’m getting rather frustrated with some people that I know and it’s unlike me. If you’re worried that it’s you, you’re probably wrong unless you know me in real life…Then there may be a problem, but it’s unlikely too.

I’ve prided myself on being able to listen to people’s problems and offer good advice, hell I’ll even help you out if you’re in a sticky situation because that’s how I was raised. If you need the help and are willing to give me at least 50% (and it doesn’t conflict with a problem of my own) I have absolutely no problem pitching in and helping out. But lately people have been frustrating me by doing little things or taking advantage of my good nature and that just rub me the wrong way.

For instance, my parents did something that pissed me off very…very badly. I wouldn’t be nearly as angry with them if they had told me about it in the beginning (like almost two months ago) rather than letting me find out what they did the hard way. I mean Jesus!! If you were that selfish to begin with you could have at least told me what you did rather than me waiting for something that will never come. Is that really too hard to ask??

Then there are some people at work that are REALLY pissing me off. You’ve got your skinny bitches that complain about being fat, and insist on going on diets when they’re only like 125 pounds. I’ve NEVER understood that. I mean I’m overweight, and I have a reason to complain about being fat. I don’t though because I’m too lazy to fix the problem so I don’t have a logical reason to complain. But seriously, if you weigh less than 150…Shut up.

Then there’s this one lady and I swear to god I want to hit her. She is a living leech. When I first started working at my company, I felt sorry for her. I mean sure I can understand if you’re down on your luck, but she takes serious advantage of people. For instance, she’s got a degree and I don’t mean like associate degree. I mean she’s got a bachelors sitting in her lap—and it was all paid for because she’s a minority. I’m paying off my college loans $200 a month to pay back 10 grand or so. And I’ve only got an associates—but I can say I got it all on my own and I’m paying back every penny for my education. It makes it worth it to me.

So. Here she is sitting with a degree that can get her paid more money than I could hope for in BUSINESS MANAGEMENT which makes my art degree look like tarnished rust covered shit (not that I’d trade her because I LIKE my job) and she refuses to leave her minimum wage telemarketing position because then “she’d be making too much money.” She’d loose her Medicare… She’d lose the Habitat for Humanity house (that was given to her because she’s a single mother with 2 children). She refuses to get remarried because with a joint income she’d loose all of that as well.

She’s also extremely overweight, like borderline morbidly obese, and wears hoochie clothes. I mean I’m fluffy, but I cover it up with Hot Topic t-shirts, hoodies, and loose slacks I don’t wear skintight clothes that let my fat hang out. Did I mention she’s getting that stomach stapling surgery (for free again) to help her fix her problem?? And then she had the nerve to ask me today if white cake was less calories than chocolate cake (as she cut a huge corner off and began gobbling it down).

I mean…Shit. She makes everyone feel sorry for her and I can’t take it anymore, because people DO feel sorry for her. Her children are nightmares because they have issues because all they see are her issues. She’s wrecked her car TWICE since I’ve been here (less than a year)… She doesn’t have any insurance. She’s always late to work (I’ll admit I walk in a few minutes after I’m supposed to be here, but she’s like 15-45 minutes late most days) and she’ll randomly take long lunches without telling anyone. She also LOVES to psych out the punch clock. She’ll go over and look like she’s punching out and then leave. So she’s still wracking up hours even when she’s not working. The time keeper and human resource lady (Who I actually like because she’s snarky and doesn’t mind a good argument from time to time with me) always has to come and ask us if one of us saw her leave. I once apologized to her in advance and then snapped at her that “I’m not ___________’s keeper.”

Everything is half-assed with her. She’ll tell people she’ll call them back and hand them off to the next person because she has “other stuff” to do. She’ll take 30 minute calls with customers when most of the other people in my department spend like 7 minutes usually on a call, and they help the person out in that time. I swear everything she does pisses me off these days and I’m tired of it.

Edit-- OMFG.... O...M...F...G... I cannot believe what she just told me... She said that she can't wait for 5-10 years because then she can SELL the house she just got from Habitat for Humanity. She moved in SATURDAY...and she can't wait to SELL THE DAMNED THING... Oh sweet Jesus. I'm SHAKING I'm so angry right now!! /End Edit

At this point I could care less if she fell off a cliff and died. That sounds horrible, I know, but it’s the truth. I really could care less.

I’m sorry if this is sounding more like a rant than feelings on a page or like I’m looking for sympathy but it’s things like this that have been making me short tempered with some of you people who haven’t done anything. I sincerely apologize if I’ve snapped at you or said something particularly mean. IT’S NOT YOUR FAULT.

I love all of my friends on DA and other websites that I go to and I let you guys know that. I know that I don’t say it enough sometimes, but it’s true. I love you guys. It’s all my friends that I talk to here on the net (LOL and the few of you who are my psychiatrist—ILU SCOTTY) that make my life bearable most of the time.

Thank you all who cheer me up when I’m upset or in a bad mood. I appreciate you all.