Once again... I haven't made it into the art gallery on Neopets... I'm so SICK of this!! Do they just pick the crappiest artist and/or artists they've picked every time before!?

I've tried EVERYTHING to get into the gallery. I've done 3-D Art, Anthro, Traditional Neopets, Photography background pictures, cute pictures, serious pictures, pictures of neopets for their particular days... NOTHING!!

This is starting to make me feel like I'm a crappy artist and that's making me feel depressed. When I feel depressed I don't have any motivation for drawing... In fact, the only picture I've drawn since Pheophin day was the sketch for the new guild layout. I was pleased with it at least... And I'm drawing another of Ash, but still.

It's the same way with the BC... I pour my guts into a picture, but all I get out of it is a few votes from loyal friends and guild members *waves and blows kisses to all of you*

So there's my rambling for the month...

Oh god, I'm so pissed right now I could spit... Which is both un-lady-like and gross. This has nothing to do with the Art Gallery or something like that... (Though I'll probably edit that in later) It has to do with being blown off by my "friends." Let's start back at the beginning shall we??

Out of all my friends, probably the closest one I have is Steve. Steve's hyper-active and crazy, and generally fun to be around. However, as of lately he's been doing little things that piss me off more and more. For instance... I had made plans with him an MONTH in advance for him to come to my family reunion... And he blew me off because his mom put him on a "guilt trip" to go to...get this...the beach... Yeah, I'm sure she REALLY had to twist his arm for that one... Well anyway, I really needed a friend that day because my grandpa on my dad's side of the family got really sick (and died the next day)... So when I called to tell him about it a week later, he started talking about all the great things he did while I was gone and he wondered where I had gone off too... When I told him... He just sort of said "Well... That sucks..." and went right back talking about video games and anime...

I guess he was just trying to make me feel better and get my mind off of it... As that's how his brain works... Anyway... I'm the kind of friend that if you invite me to something or we make plans it takes alot to get me away from them... So if you call me up to come over, I'll be there in a little while... Steve calls every day... So I'll hang out for an hour no matter how busy I am. I mean, I'm a generous person, I let people barrow things... Anime (because I'm the only person who BUYS the stuff here), Books, Video games... Just so long as they come back in GOOD condition...I really don't care... I let him barrow one of my prized books in my collection, and I get it back with the spine bent in so many places I actually cried... I guess he's not the person to meet people half-way... Though I DID enjoy his mom bitching him out about taking care of other people's things...

However, all that stuff I could tolerate... ALL of it... What he did to me today, I can't tolerate...

We had made plans to go to the movies a few days ago... He'd pay for my ticket, and I'd order pizza for before the show... So I call the pizza in, paid for it, and I'm sitting in the movie theater parking lot. It was getting pretty close to the show and he hadn't showed up yet... So I use my cellphone to call him. HE WAS STILL ASLEEP IN BED... When his mom picked up I asked "Where are you guys??" and she goes "Steve didn't tell you?? We went to go see Spiderman last night with Aunt Janie..." I was just speechless. It would have been NICE to know that before I drove 15 minutes driving, spent 20 dollars for a pizza, and sat in my car like a dumbass for 45 minutes... I even wore my contacts to look nice... I only wear those to special occations...

So you can see... I'm very, VERY upset... He is a selfish bastard and he'll be lucky if I talk to him in the next month... I don't even care if I miss his birthday... Bashtard...

Blahhh, I'm falling WAY behind in my art pictures I owe people. I finished Starye's... But I need to shade it and make it all cute and cuddly. I owe Fexus one, just because he's cool, and I owe Nalem one for hitting 666 on my lookup page...

I should start on those... But I'm lazy and a procrastinator, so if a wave of pictures randomly show up... Um... Yeah... O_o;;

Currently working: On Fexus' picture...

Finished!!: Pepsi, 's character. =3
's picture for hitting 666

I'm sorry to say this guys and girls, but I'm going to be gone for a while... My grandfather's health took a turn for the worse this morning and they've expected him to die in a span from Tonight until Tuesday... So I'll be with him and my grandma until then.

Please nobody feel sorry for me, because I'm really glad he's going to die... Not meant in a bad way, mind you, but he's been suffering for so long that it hurts to look at him. He's been in and out of the hospital for as long as I can remember properly. He can't even speak anymore... He can hear us fairly okay, but he'll just grunt answers and he looks like he's asleep when he does... It's really sad.

So that's to explain my sudden disappearance for a while and not to worry about me. I'm happy that I know he'll be in a better place, even if it's not with me in this world anymore. Tata and may the world not shit on you...

I'm tempted to randomly select like 3 people from my Devi-Stalk...er...Devi-Watch list and do a picture for them... So if any of my Sta--Watchers sees this...Then reply and I'll add you to the drawing... Of course if I only get one person who says they want to be in the thing... Then they'll get three piccies !!